Right now I'm in the state of denial opening up to more pain.........
I've come to realised that he hadn't ever loved me......that perhaps he only wanted to be with me for one of two choices:-
Scenario 1:-
He just wamted to try it out for the first time and now he is bored so it's bye bye to me.......
Scenario 2:-
He is actually using me to deflect rumors and now is bored so it's bye bye to me..............
Either way.........I was a convenient person to use and discard........
I'm trying not to care about him anymore. It's obvious he doesn't care because he is having a great time at school while I feel like total crap......and a total mess.........and empty..........and alone...............
It's hard not caring for someone whom obviously I'm not over........I have no idea how to fall out of love.......and it's obvious I'm still in love because he appears when I close my eyes, and when I open them...........I daydream alot...................................
+The Writer+
Taka is a young law/arts student, often bumbling through life and trying to be a person rather than being defined by social conventions.
Shy, geeky, emotional, proud, and quite bisexual, doesn't smoke, drink sometimes, passionate about most things, Taka spends time dreaming, dancing, drawing and watching movies, often anime.
Is in love with the idea of love, gives hugs at the most random times, and is constantly worrying about people eventhough it does not look like it.
Aspires to either become a beautiful hermit by the river or a world dictator.
+The Blog+
Niflheim represents both light and darkness, of the celebration and distaste of life, of musings and incoherent thought. It is an outlet for personified angst and pessimism with chuckfuls of laughter and smiles.
It is Taka's way of drawing out all the little disturbing thoughts giving rise to nightmares, a way to self reflect, a way to seek solace.
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