Monday, March 30, 2009
And always. Perhaps I'm really stupid after all.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 12:08 AM
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Where no sounds thread through the room, where I lay to love and breathe,
Where the voices finally sleep,
I see your eyes bright watching me, itching, glancing, furtively,
Waiting for me to slip and again,
To tell me, I miss you,
My faded scars.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 7:53 PM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Sometimes when I look at you, I wish I could draw a knife across your face.
Trace the scars across your wrist, across your heart, and watch it drip into the sink.
I'll draw a ruby red smile across your mouth, to mimic the lies you whisper against my breast.
And see it all washed away.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 12:14 PM
Monday, March 16, 2009
How could I have so easily let go.
Forgotten and given up.
Have I ever said, how disappointed you made me.
Of all the people, there was only one person I trusted. I didn't care about the others...but you were the one I trusted and you hurt me. You hurt me...and that's why I forced everything to go away, that's why I tried so hard to forget.
I spoke again because she begged me too. The day she was hysterical and everyone was crying and she said please, and I said ok. I remembered.
How could I have so easily let go...
You've told me what a burden I am in your life.
How could I have so easily let go....
Because you needed me before. And now I knew you were alright. You were going to be ok. And you are.
I am not.
I'm alive because she's important. And I'm so much..so much stronger than she is. I can survive but she can't. I live for her, but everyday I wish.
I wish I had died.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 3:25 AM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Birthday Present for age 22:-
Chocolate Milkshake.
Thanks Mich!
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 5:31 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
I'm depressed.
Lovely.
Cue, anxiety.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 2:30 PM
Friday, March 06, 2009
I'm tired all the time. Weary. Unhappy.
It never goes away, this friend of mine, perpetual by my side, filling my head with stories.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 1:36 AM
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Dancing, dancing my world's worries away.....dancing my life's worries away....dancing my life away.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 11:16 PM
Sunday, March 01, 2009
I'm now 22. And spent the day looking at gray skies.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 9:57 PM
