Monday, July 31, 2006
Gifts and Curses- Yellowcard
Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.
(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.
Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?
(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, its all for you
and my worst pains are words I cannot say
still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you. Fight on for you...
Except inclusion
- I see your face with every breathe I take,
And every breathe I break, it's all for you,
Cos I was pained by words I can not say,
Still I will always fight on for you.
The most beautiful lyrics you can find when sad and can't hear the singer properly.
Check out the song.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 6:17 PM
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Semester has started. College has started. And life in new room has started. It's not looking so bad ^^.
I mean sure, gotto get used to new class, new neighbours, new bathroom, new timetable and running around hectic changing subjects. But.....classes has started well, I'm more or less on schedule for reading, I don't feel so pathetically poor and lost.
Colleg O2 week has started, filled with more parties than anything else. Last night everyone got drunk at the wing parties, especially East rocking it up. South (my new wing) was relatively less huzzah eventhough they basically threw up the ground floor. S2 (our floor) theme was 'In the Sky' so I went as the night sky complete with halter dress, bangles and sparkly shawl draped over my hair (and diamond studded open toe sandals). Connie was her usual self as morning sky complete with a white shawl as clouds and a paper sun pinned to her dress. We had fun with make up in Vanessa's room xD. Blue eyeshadow gets funny results. Vanessa and Megan as seaweed as they were 'Under the Sea' (south ground floor) while S1 was 'On Land'. East became jocks and cheerleaders, North as rockstars and Ann borrowed my leather mini skirt and definitely looked hot.
E1 corridor congregated the entire place, drunk, wild and slobbering over each other. What a ruckus......what a smell.......they looked like they were having fun though.......we spent more time looking for Ann than participating. Looked way too scary to even approach though.......how torn the soul is to leap and soar and experience the wonders of youth and the pangs of regret stop short what fancies we might take. Guava flavored Cruiser tastes nice =)
Found Louis in the thick of E's revelry, with his arm around one of the new students from America. xD. I wonder. He seems as if he liked her, in a more than sense kindda way. Her personality is more suited to his liking, fun type of girl, one 'he could take out' yupples......
What am I feeling........wakarimasen......halfway of.....should be glad if he's happy...halfway.......hurt or disappointed......so selfish of me =).
Found ski trip photos. Apparently college people spent more time in the hot tub than on the slopes. Also they were making movies of their own....ahem....unmentionable areas.........
How torn the soul is to ......walk past them and mention 'So Small!'
Actually got a H2B in LMR exam......the research essay dragged it down...gah, frustrating. And me previously rooting for essay results to be included into exam in order to ensure those who work throughout the year gain the recognition they deserve than those who merely show up for exams. >> how the mighty has fallen....
Oh yes.....switching from philosophy to politics I might....maybe....sorta.....crashing one of their lectures today to see.
The rest of the girls did amazingly well, with bright H1s scattered across....gah how frustrating...me just happy I PASSED. Can you believe.......the girl who used to worry about getting a B.........TT......
Bah.......*turkish curses ensues*
But it's not looking so bad =).
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 2:17 PM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Gah....I stepped on a cockroach. That happened last week, I just find the strength to write about it now. It was icky. End of story. Feet was poky too....technically it was an upside down dead cockroach.
Stop ewwing....
Two more days and I'll be back in Melbourne....fun....seriously.....><
Just don't like the....studying....
Timetable doesn't look too rotten.
I'm wishing my boyfriend was a little more romantic.....(too many romance novels)...but I like those wishy washy stuff....the roses, candlelight dinner, surprise showing up and spending time with me....mmmm......mainly just...some nice surprises even if it meant showing up one night and saying 'let's watch a video' or coming up after a class with some icecream or hot chocolate.....or leaving a plushie on my pillow with the words 'I love you' 'I miss you' 'I'm thinking of you' etc etc etc.....
I'd the make the best boyfriend >>....
Then I wonder if I'm being too shallow......I already like him like this...so why whine....
><....so I'm shallow.......wouldn't mind being appreciated once awhile.....
Art updates. And no...I still don't know what subject I want to do this semester...
Shinigami OC is an original character and the first in line of the shinigami from my new Gaia B/C Shop. Currently hiring manager and artists.
Tahatan. I redid my Soquili Indian OC in digital art. He looks rather sad and don't know what to do with his bow and arrow....
Room Interest is my new room door pin up.
Pancakes, anyone? Pancakes + Taka...what's not to like?
Liathan Ball. I know...forgot his goatee...
Jehovah's Witness. Go, download and put as your new desktop wallpaper or I'll never forgive you xD. Realism, beautiful exotic woman....go now.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 2:20 AM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Some rant in the paper today. "Ban all University orientation". No not from the government...but a disgruntled first year.
Seems young man has experienced loss of sleep due to orientation and such activities as 'getting abused for being made to get senior's autographs and getting yelled at'.
Said young man stated that orientation is useless and a waste of time for people like him who went to university to study.
Ok...granted I did not wholly receive orientation myself ecsthetically (sp?)
But I realised its usage. It allows first years to relax and mingle, get to know others. Allows seniors to know first years and vice versa. Get them to have some fun together before buckling down.
I think there's two more very important uses for orientation. One is that the process is made formal and is supervised. Tutors have knowledge that orientation activities such as waking people up at 6 in the morning to go run is on the agenda. It's far different than perhaps in America where many colleges have unsupervised orientation and would physically abuse newcomers. Heard to rising death rates on campuses? I believe one kid was found with objects inside of him too....
Last, it removes all boundaries. Without orientation cliques would form instantaneously with the geek kids, the popular kids, the wild kids, the silent and ghostly kids. Orientation breaks it down and for one week all first years are just first years. New and curious and scared about university. They share the same experience of no sleep and of humiliation and of getting gunk into their hair. No one is singled out for special treatment. No need for anyone to feel shy or angry or get psychological trauma first semester of uni.
So it's somewhat useful. What's important is not that there is orientation or not but the behaviour and attitude of those involved. Seniors should not take advantage of the situation to inflict harm. First years should learn to laugh at themselves and look at it as learning to be social. University isn't just for studying a certain course, it's also for learning about yourself and others.
On a totally unrelated sidenote:- people are pesky...like flies.
Pirates of the Carribean was fun. Johnny Depp gave another astounding performance as Captain Jack Sparrow. I think he's suited to eccentricities. Alot of new watery characters. One dimensional sure....but colorful nonetheless. I wish they gave a more prominent role to that Dalmar witch lady.
On another unrelated sidenote:- then I wonder what I'll do without people...probably die somewhere holding a book....alas....even people invented books...and wrote them....and published them, sold them......blah.
No one ever cares about poverty, the number one killer on the planet.
I feel sick that people only care when a drastic event much publicised happens. Like the 'current' war that Israel is involved in.
I feel sick that even I only feel that wrathful injustice when I hear of children dying, people suffering, men and women dragged off to war......
pah, We are all Hypocrites.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 1:31 AM
Friday, July 07, 2006
Funny thing among many funny things in the newspaper today. Granted, the Malaysian newspapers aren't the most outright 'free' press but nonetheless. Government authorities have made a plea for indian filmmakers to remove all 'suicidal scenes' from movies. They state that such scenes encourage violent mimicry such as the tragic deaths of a mother and her two children (two survived). Hmmm, while you're at it, why not ban ALL violent scenes, all scenes that include rape, wife battery, child molest, gun fights, violence in general from every movie made, especially those high profile american ones. It makes sense that all negative actions within society stems from movies, those same movies which reflect and copy real life?
To attack and blame the movie industry for society ills is to merely look at the fire that had caused destruction, rather than the hand which had lit the match. Sure studies have shown that there are higher rates of aggression due to the video games, movies etc etc etc.......but where have that aggression come from? Are people merely dolls following some pixelated action?
Surely the government could do better than to make a plea- remove all suicidal scenes because they encourage people to commit suicide?
What about concentrating on ensuring free national education and higher standards so people are well aware movies should be distinct with real life? How about focusing on raising employment and living standards to remove poverty, home disintegration and psychological trauma such as frustration and stress associated growing up with virtually nothing? Or implementing social schemes to encourage counseling, support, racial understanding.
Or is it too hard? So it's simpler...of course...to blame movies.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 2:36 AM
Bunny Taka in a bunny suit! Tadaa....
Tasiym in a ballgown. Character belongs to Tasah. Very proud of this one I am ^^.
Dasumi with Dr.House. Cute ne? ^^.
Next up is a blue ish face shot of a girl with silver hair.....
On a totally unrelated note:-
Exam results for Semester one-
Total war- WWI- H3
Global Justice and Human Rights- P
Legal Method and Reasoning- H3
Principles of Public Law- P
Next semester.....aiming for H2B...>>
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 2:09 AM
Saturday, July 01, 2006
There hasn't been a more miserable time I've had on a plane...and not miserable about how I felt but about what I'm missing. This was worse than the flight TO Melbourne. Who'd have guessed I'd miss the city, the people, the independence.....the gorgeous lufflable boyfriend.....gah....
All the time in the world...and it's not cold and no need to work...yet....so...bored...
All I do is eat, sleep, draw, read, gaia.......seriously....sad.....is too good a word.
And the food has deteriorated on MAS. A sandwich? A SANDWICH for dinner? A SANDWICH FOR DINNER......wrapped in clingfoil....
Business class....*claws at the curtains*
I think this is what people term ...boliao...
So onto updates.
Bunch of new artwork. I went a tad wild.
Mermaid is a new fullbody fantasy piece, pour moi. Took over 12 hours due to computer failing and refusing to save several times and I had to redo background and ocean overtone. Surprisingly, some cropping, multi shaded lines and layers create a wonderful feeling of depth and perception to the background. Zoom in to see the hair, pearls and patterning on the tail.
Tasiym, wedding shot is based on a character by Tasah. My first fantasy style princess in a long time. Her head seems a tad big....hands are awkward. Hair I love...I'm getting better at them, and redid the eyes from realism (totally destroyed it) to anime eyes. Dress based on several photographs, and finally said forget it, and did a very simplistic willowy design.
Jinxeh kitty, commission for Jinxeh. Chibi nonetheless....umm...not too cute but posing getting better.
Artemis IOA, the goddess of forest and the hunt. She looks more mature here, redid her hair into a braid, added a bow.
Olathe, female soquili anthro. Belongs to Jadeeye. Wonderfully unique coloring and her tail and mane were fun to do ^^.
Wataru Fujii. Hmm...what can I say......ugh.....*runs away in horror*
Helmel. I like this one. Simple and cute.
One month should be enough to finish the rest...I also have plans for a spidery woman....
Onward to wishlist. I have decided I want a full art set. Umm....and books.
Anyway......my birthday is March 1st, which means..next year *grumbles* but christmas is coming!
As I said....opening real life art commissions so I can get some money to get the art sets or if you're really nice and love me, I do love presents too >^^<
Wishlist
Prismacolor Art Markers 48set
Prismacolor Thicklead Color Pencils 24set
Copic Multiliner 7set
They are so gorgeous....*drools*
Currently reading 'The 10th Kingdom' by Kathryn Wesley. Quite good...mmm....has also finished 'Gift' by Ursula Le Guin. There are so many new anime illustration books in Kinokuniya.....I so so....consumerist want ......pretty.....
How I'll ever be able to support myself in the future..I have no idea..
Ah well...
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 11:03 PM
