Setting off to Aradale asylum photomeet with a bunch of funky cool people on the last weekend of August. I've been promised a slr on loan so I'll be playing newbie photographer and model-on-call.
How awesome is awesome. And I can wriggle my way into a corset. Awesome.
I'm at the point where I'm standing before a momentous brick wall, staring up and wondering, what am I doing? Modeling started off as fun, a way to create images other than taking up my pencils or stylus, a way to meet people and get out and be more confident. Now I want to take the next step and start bringing concepts to life, to show the visions I have, to show this is what I'm capable of, to show that I'm not boring or forgettable, always passed over, in the background, always dimmed in my tiny tiny world. All I want to do is be creative, to be able to look at an image and say wow I'm a part of that, to be able to show someone part of what I see everyday; the colors, shapes and light, the movements and emotions and little laughter crinkles, the sadness in someone's eyes even when they smile, every wrinkle and scar, the possibilities of the mind and body as beautiful and unashamed. I want to always be part of something I can look back on and be proud. Now I'm wondering, my ideas are so naive, so ineffectual. Now I'm wondering if I'll ever be capable, but no, I'll always be responsible and accountable to every person including those I've yet to meet, and still wondering.
+The Writer+
Taka is a young law/arts student, often bumbling through life and trying to be a person rather than being defined by social conventions.
Shy, geeky, emotional, proud, and quite bisexual, doesn't smoke, drink sometimes, passionate about most things, Taka spends time dreaming, dancing, drawing and watching movies, often anime.
Is in love with the idea of love, gives hugs at the most random times, and is constantly worrying about people eventhough it does not look like it.
Aspires to either become a beautiful hermit by the river or a world dictator.
+The Blog+
Niflheim represents both light and darkness, of the celebration and distaste of life, of musings and incoherent thought. It is an outlet for personified angst and pessimism with chuckfuls of laughter and smiles.
It is Taka's way of drawing out all the little disturbing thoughts giving rise to nightmares, a way to self reflect, a way to seek solace.
