Saturday, October 30, 2004
My poor Jas kun lost his wallet.......maybe left it in the common room.......................*sniff*..........*have to go find beloved Jas kun's wallet!!*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:21 PM
*ugh* woke up so early today…………and there was a mosquito buzzing around me like at 6 in the morning………..scratch scratch like mad………..
Dragged over to the American school and found the door to the band room locked………….so back I went to the canteen…………..eh, so not nice to be alone there………..one of the other schools just kept to themselves and went off somewhere, so I was left alone to look at the AIDS reso…………then people started arriving and we went to the band room……………
Wow, fierce debates!! On AIDS somemore………….only one reso though, ours………..and you had those who were against coming up with the weirdest points……like it was vague when their own speeches were vague like heck……………..so I had my speech that come out rather well, but not much response………che…………..oh, and I found out that the nation of the Holy See was the Vatican city……..goodness knows why they are at a political organization committee…..and the delegate were spewing out the stuff about love, peace, harmony…….and abstinence……..honestly……you would think they had no condoms in the Vatican city………….believe me…….they do…………and the American delegate actually agreed with Holy See!! Che…………..
We still won though, great news for the first time……….hahahahaha…………
Second reso was so boring though………..came from one of our school’s the kingdom of Spain…….and the guy is so……….overly confident………speeches were good, but antagonizing……..and so loud………*ouch* my poor ears……..
But it was so utterly boring………..Israel just went neutral…..that means I just sat there…….and doodling……….they kept going to recess and congregating around each other……………I was pretty much left alone………oh, and it was a reso on the reconstruction of Iraq………..Iraq and USA later merged their reso with Spain, and they got what they want, but voting came, and the reso got shut down……..so tough luck………………..we abstain…………that is, I abstained………….sigh……………………..MUN is no longer fun ne………I likes last year…….even though I was forced to cry last year……..by some German delegate, who was Libya’s delegate this time……….and he has to give me these weird looks…………we seem to just have a natural nemesis thing……….Libya is against Israel……………chee…………though now he supports the withdrawal of the Coalition from Iraq……last year, he scolded me like heck because of my stance on Iraq…………………………see, I was Iraq and I wanted coalition troops out…………………….humph………………..
I miss my Jas kun……………….
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:18 PM
Finality has decided
That the blossom of desire expires
Meeting the dread of conclusion
Perhaps the aspiration drones?
Trailing little droplets
Leave their marks dark
Against the skin
Hidden in the depth of silence
Small puckering makes
Their presence known
You find a tremor, trembling
Within the soul
Is it asking your permission
Or knowing your wants
Finding the centre from
Which you crave
That feeling sinking to the pits
The lull holds baited breathe
To fall into the ecstasy awaiting
Its tenuous nature gives
Instant pleasure staring, fulfilling the return
Caress tingling aftertaste…..
by Sukunami Taka
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:15 PM
Friday, October 29, 2004
Sniff……….we got into a fight today………….*sad miao*
Jas-kun so mean…first it was the complaint about the kiss, then he complained about our snuggle sessions………..*wail*
He asked if we were going to snuggle even if it was the mocks………then he made some other comment, and I said I won’t snuggle again, and he said ‘let’s break up then’…………………sniff……….he wanted to break up with me……..*wail*……………………I was so sad, and he didn’t look as if he cared, and he just sat there, then he just left for class……….*sniffle*
But he came back after class……an hour and a half later, and said he was sorry……..*stops sniffling*…………he said he was just kidding…….but it was a mean joke ne…………but we made up and hugged again………….. I luvvy my Jas kun…………..even though he can be a bit inconsiderate sometimes……….maybe just abit blur……………..still………….*beams*
And then we had a proper kiss………..it lasted more than three seconds……. I think……….and it was so nice………..*happy miao*………heeeeeeeeeeee………………………..*luv my Jas kun*
An hour later, we arrived at a MUN conference at another school………*sigh*…………don’t like this school ne……its people so….like that…………and the lobbying was so not good……….last year much was better, this year they just rally around the people whom they already spoke to for the resolution………….
Good thing though, I decided to merge with the delegate of Turkey’s reso for prevention and combat of AIDS…………..
So tired when we got home………..and yes it did rain………….last time it happened too……..traffic jam and rain after MUN conference………..must be something………..
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 7:22 PM
Thursday, October 28, 2004
He admitted he liked my kiss.........*sniff*....just that it was a bit messy.............*giggle*.........still, it was nice for a first kiss........I think...............yum yum........
*hug jas kun*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:29 PM
And he didn’t like it………my boyfriend don’t like my kisses………*sniffles*…….my very first kiss, which was suppose to be romantic……kindda took me by surprise didn’t it……….and he replied he didn’t like it…………..actually he complained about it…………..he actually complained about an earlier one too……….but this was like a proper kiss…………….*cries*……………………….so mean……hidoi………..what is wrong with my kiss………what did he expect anyway……….was my very first one………….*cries even more*……..this is worse than losing my clothes………………….
I didn’t complain………….but he did………I find that very mean…….and when I got sad over it and said I wasn’t ever going to kiss him ever again, he said ok………………he said OK!!................no hugs, no sorries…..but an OK!!! *dissolves into a wavering mush*
* is never going to be emotionally stable ever again*
*resolves to never be emotionally stable again*
*cries*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:27 PM
What I have learned:
1. be paranoid, be very paranoid
2. if you work all day and get home late, then go on the internet, you get a headache in the morning
3. argue with people who are stupider than you………..(yes there’s such a thing)
4. I’m not getting my clothes back………….wishes doesn’t work………
5. don’t bring expensive clothes to school…..even though they look great for kickboxing
6. attempt to French kiss somebody who isn’t prepared for it……
che………………
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:25 PM
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Who the heck steals clothes?? What would you do with stolen clothes??? Who the heck would steal MY clothes??? *takes a deep breathe*………..it is so unfair……on top of everything……..of having homework pile up and worrying about my Oxford prospects, and the MUN conference this Friday, and the MUN thing in Hague next year, and prom…….. someone just had….just HAD to steal MY clothes!!! *wail*……………………who steals CLOTHES??? And I was so stupid, so idiotic not to have noticed!!! I should have noticed after lunch, but noooooooo……… I was too busy………actually I only had eyes for my Jas kun…….but still….. I should have atleast noticed that my clothes were gone!! And I needed them for kickboxing!!! Who steal clothes???!!! I can understand if my handphone was stolen….or my wallet……or even books………but clothes?? Who else can fit into my clothes?? Ok, maybe a few people……but who knows I had clothes and actually takes them from my bag??!! Weird kleptomaniac people……….but it was in the sixth form common room…….during lunch……I know most people in the sixth room, who would be so inconsiderate and mean to take something from me? Ok, maybe I don’t know everyone in year 12, but which idiotic yr 12 would steal from a yr 13?...................
I cried my eyes out with the accompanying sniffles and red eyes and slight hiccupping and moaning for a full 15 mins after I found out about the ‘disappearance’ of my clothes………………. Why me? I didn’t do anything to anyone………I am essentially nice………why would anyone want to see me cry? I want my Jas kun………I also want my very expensive $200 pair of pants…..and tshirt………and then my Jas kun had to leave….leaving his koibito to continue crying…………that’s very inconsiderate you know *sniffle*……………..but my friends were so nice…….*dissolve into sopping mess*……they went around everywhere trying to help me look while I broke down and cry…..and Rashyi chan held my hands till I stopped sobbing……….then came the little talk with our sixth form head to report my loss………..then the full stop of my crying with slight hiccups from me………then they made me laugh……with Su’s whip, and our make shift choir and Rashyi’s funny funny anecdotes…………*hugs all my friends*…………..Pri pri and Annabellie missed their kickboxing lesson to accompany me too………….^.^
They are the best…….^.^
Two hours later........
Jas kun said he love me........*weeeeee*.....he loves me...........heeeeeee.......
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:44 PM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
I’m so tired today…………it was a full class today, added to MUN and then trying to lobby through email for support for my resolution………*sigh*……..*I have the headache of the lifetime*……….*and I’m so sick of sociology*……..
And I found out that the history homework I kept remembering all week to do today, was actually already done by me last week………….see……I’m growing old….. I can’t even remember that I did my homework…… I’m trying too old……….
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:30 PM
Monday, October 25, 2004
*makes bleary face*
I hate interviews………..yes, I know I’ve said this before but it was the most horrible thing ever……….. I went to the Oxford interview and it did not go well….in fact it went horribly……… I think………more or less……… it wasn’t that bad……..ok, ok……. I didn’t exactly come out crying but I did come out as a zombie……so there………….
*sigh*
so I went to this rather icky looking hotel…..you would think being Oxford they would be able to afford Hilton, or Four Seasons………..che…….
the walls were orange…..and the carpeting were orange...........*laughs insanely*
so I sat there, being out of place, and then I was given a text that was based on a medical case about contracts….american no doubt seeing the frivolous nature of it……….how can a guy sue when a doctor only guaranteed him a perfect hand but his hand turned out hairy???? Maybe he could but still………….
Alas, all my preparations and worldly knowledge went to waste…..so did all my research on Oxford and Magdalen………..cause my interviewer never asked about them!!! Instead she focused solely on the case!!! For which some of the questions I had no idea how to answer……..stupidity is the least……..*wail*
She keeps nodding and tilting her head and saying ‘that’s right’ when I answered…..and when I kept silent for a while to think, she kept writing on her piece of paper!!! *sniff*……………….
And the night before, Jas kun kept trying to hang up and go iron his shirt………when I needed comforting before my interview, he’s more interested in his shirts………*wail*………
Atleast he hugged me after the interview……I looked nice too in my suit……..heeeeeee…………
Jas kun is sweet…………he has a very natural way of draping his arm around me…..or across my lap….and holding my hand……..*giggle*…….I’m in love ne……………although he needs a heck lot of hints to hug me……..occasionally………he won’t do it if there are other people around…….. I don’t see why not……it’s not like people don’t know we are going out…….ok, may be not going out…but he’s my bf………….eeeeeee…..my little dolphinny…….and he woffles his nose too…………*giggle*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 5:15 PM
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Yay!! I'm proud to announce the joining of my beloved and sweet Jas kun to this blog.....I think he may be giving an entry soon but he is still figuring things out...........yay *huggy*.........
and he may be joining me on Fanfiction and Fictionpress too.........I hope....he hasn't agreed fully yet though..........*miao*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:00 PM
I’ve been seeing your face….for so long
The lasting voice whispering so softly
Giving the days, the sun time to cross the sky
Of shadowless clouds
Until the evenings come by, and the glimmering lights find you by
Crying faceless tears
Have the time been gone
Unnoticed
Red streaks slowly find its way
Down the paleness
Dripping past to the waiting floor
Perhaps the only truth
Are the tears down my face
Keeping to the tightness
I can’t seem to breathe
Have the tears been gone
So long I haven’t noticed
Till the nights washed over with gold
The brightness itself shows through
I can’t find the darkness
But I know it’s there
Could you tell me
Have the tears shown you the truth
Been flowing so long
It’s gone unnoticed
I don’t know if these eyes could stay open
One day till they find the darkness gone
And so did the light……
by Sukunami Taka
available at Poet's Sanctuary and Fictionpress
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 9:59 PM
I miss my Jas kun so much......he can't come online today, cos he's going to a wedding.......wail.........and there are other people there....and girls.....and music afterwards........perhaps dancing.....yes yes, I know I'm getting jealous.....but still........sniff....I miss him...and I tried calling at 3 o'clock but someone said he was out already....so I feel even worse now.....
I've been staring at this computer the entire day....and I'm not kidding.....but I have not even started my huge sociology essay yet......and it's due on Monday, the same day as my interview and I have to also prepare for the interview and my internet account only have less than 10 dollars......I am so dead...........
*hate essays*........what am I going to do???
*sigh*...........
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 9:54 PM
Thursday, October 21, 2004
My Jas kun and I are having a relationship..........I feel so happy ne, I don't think I've ever felt so happy....and contented....I'm like a purring contented kitty cat.....Jas kun is the sweetest...and nicest and cutest.......and.......*dreams*...........I think I'm falling in love......*sigh dreamily*
And he would put his arms around me when I need a hug or when I'm feeling sad......heee, and occasionally he tries to put his arm around me and he does it ever so shyly...ooo, and his hugs....his hugs are so warm ne.....and soft......gentle.........*I'm falling in love*.......and his hand is warm too....and he would hold my hand with both of his.......^.^......*purrrrr......miao*
And it's so nice to cuddle cuddle in the common room......I hardly get to spend time with him, as he can't go online for long, and he doesn't have a handphone....and I can't call him that often cause mother and grandmother are complaining.......sniff sniff...........but I like to cuddle with him..........he is warm.......and gentle......and he would lean over and rests his head on mine....and I can sleep on his shoulder..............*dreams happily*..............I'm falling in love...................
I should actually be concentrating.....school work is piling up and I have these three week, one week each projects that have an essay after every week from socio....which is......a horrendously huge amount of work.......as well as more essays and stuff from Lit, and business.......and history.....damn.....I got a test tomorrow on dates.....A level and I'm memorising dates!! And the Oxford interview in on monday.......I should have been prepared since two weeks ago but I'm not....................*sigh*.......I miss my Jas kun...............
*mop mop*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 9:32 PM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Moonless nights fall into eternity,
The face of stark,
Blankness….
Is of perfection.
I walk the streets,
At night,
The coldness blowing,
Across the littered ground,
Paved gravel,
With each slow step,
The crunching stones mark,
Tiny scars………lashing through,
The dreamless nights,
Depriving me of sleep,
Where is the screaming coming from,
Where is the pain that reminds me of this face,
That is of perfection.
I have fallen,
Screaming,
The wings have yet to catch me,
Solitary rooms given the shadows playing,
Light…………darkness,
Hidden images of the child,
The prison just beyond brightly colored wallpaper,
Have the little stumped petals open yet,
Gazing with eyes of the face,
That is of perfection.
Alone, whispering voices,
From the perfect people, so wanted, so together,
Against me.
I feel the wrecked torment growing, singing,
The screaming has not stopped,
Letting me fall,
From the side,
I see the face, that is of perfection,
Staring back, blankly stark,
Paleness against the night,
Stunted wings have yet to catch me,
The face of perfection.
by Sukunami Taka
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 6:06 PM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Ohaiyo............
I'm a little drained right now....huge emotional and mental breakdown......ok, maybe not so huge...just a tiny little one.....
I'm just wondering how I am suppose to handle everything......
Prom is coming up in december and I am by no means ready....I've just got invited to an Oxford interview on the 25th...and again I am not ready.....
I just got two exams/tests over in history and business which I did not study for, so failure is imminent.....
*sigh*
My mind is dying......and.........for some reasons people are having a ignore Taka day and make fun of Taka'.........there is a certain lack of sensitivity towards me isn't there.............
I wrote a new poem called Perfection.....will be available at Fictionpress, and Poet's Sanctuary.....
Ja ne
T
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:20 PM
I am born the son of a bitch. I hate her………….I hate her………….I hate her…………..there is no deeper emotion of revulsion and chagrin everytime I hear her voice, everytime I am forced to see her blasphemous face, everytime I have to inhale her vile smoke…………….I hate her………….
But to say hate, is to have liked her first…………….never…….not when I was a child……..not when I was growing up………….not when I have realized the impossible prison she had locked me under ignorance, incapability, dependency………fear…………isolation…………perceptibly the lowest self esteem to have graced this earth with a birth of a human being…………….
I………….do……….not………..like………..her………………
Her, my mother………………..hah! great……..now every birth giving women shall be called a mother ne? vicious term…………binding you to eternal slavery behind the façade of limitless love where one is exposed to terror and humiliation and self loathing……………self loathing mistakably pointed to me when it should be at her………………
Perhaps I was Hitler in my past life……… I am punished now……………has the punishment been not enough that I was born to her? Must it be that I live each and every day under her mocking smirk………..a contemptible smile to the outside world…………..turn to yelling, screaming, degradation within the house……………..her friends…….are…….more important……….than we are…………….
Like she has a reputation……….yes she does……………..shallow………selfish………..vain…………..fakery is the epitome of her being……………her existence…………………sadistic is hardly a word for her presence…..she is mere despicability…………….
Everyday….every moment………..her waking up every morning brings the stark chilling dread…..you hope…………please, please…..just go away…………….. I prefer an absent mother….than one who pretends to be here, lying…cheating……..fakery…………
I don’t understand……I really don’t………so many families out there, I had to be in this one……..with her………. I don’t understand how someone could pretend to be a mother when she has never done the job…never been here…….never listened………never freaking god damn let someone have their own life without her freaking control when she is so god damn stupid!! All she is ever concerned with is her parties, her socialites, her magazines…..her freaking make up that makes her look like she has came back from the dead and decided to go to a party, her incessant smoking, her constant image that screams FAKE! FAKE! FAKE! FAKE!
Let me make this clear then……………I don’t like her……..I’ve never likes her………..she is not a mother, will never be, was never one………….I hate her………. I hate the way she only gives advice, stuff that she heard from other people and which has no relevance to my life…. I hate the way she is so ignorant yet pretends to be clever when everyday she has to ask to spell a simple word…..I hate the way she spends the whole day wrapped up in her palm pilot when she doesn’t even know how to use the sms function properly…….I hate the way she insists she is right when she doesn’t even know all the facts, and in actuality she is in the wrong………I hate the way she refuses to stop smoking even though her only child has astma since young………I hate the way she barges into my room to use the bathroom when she has one of her own………I hate the way she interrupts my conversations on the phone then scream if I interrupt hers to give her a message……I hate the way she eavesdrop into my conversation, bearing no mind of personal privacy, then screams at everyone is her own conversations are interrupted……….I hate the way she just sits there on the couch, smoking, drinking coffee which she doesn’t make herself, not bothered with anyone and yet bothering the rest of us…….I hate the way she orders everyone around, screaming at her own mother………..I hate the way she takes us for granted……..I hate the way she purses her lips……….I hate the way she just leaves to ‘go on holiday’ when she is on holiday twenty four seven every year……..I hate the way she thinks her work is important when what she does is going to parties and giggling with rich old snobbish women…… I hate the way she grovels their existence, pretending she is the one who is important and that she is doing this for the good of everyone…I hate the way she thinks people like her when they don’t……..I hate the way she plays games, thinking she is doing the right thing, games which involves people…….I hate the way she discards people when they are no longer useful to her………I hate the way she thinks it’s other people’s fault when she was the one being a bitch…….I hate the way she insists she is important….when she is an insignificant speck that doesn’t contribute anything……..I hate the way she thinks she looks beautiful when she goes for plastic surgery and botox injections, redoing her nose, tucking her eyes………..I hate the way she dismisses anything I say, hate the way she thinks I’m irrelevant, hates the way she thinks that I am useless yet can get into Oxford to support her in her old life…………………………………….
Get this…………….you are old. You are fake. You are ignorant. You are useless. You are unlikable.
I hate you……….your only child hates you………..get this.
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:19 PM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
To wake up at 3 in the morning with a mosquito zzzzzing in your ear is enough to drive you wild…….furthermore when the said mosquito had bitten you twice on the arm and once on your lip causing said lip to balloon up like you’ve just been in a fight and is now sporting a lopsided pair of lips that makes you look like you are a physically auxtrasiced kid………..no offence to those who are………but technically I looked ugly this morning……..until the afternoon……through to evening………..the ice pack didn’t work…….and then came the gel balm that was suppose to help with bites and stings………ok, the swelling has reduced a tiny bit…….but it’s still there…………*sniff*
My eyes sting too………there’s unseen smoke trailing around the house……grandma is using an old secret to kill mosquitoes with smoke from a scented coal…but right now it’s wrecking my eyes……..*double sniff*
And I still miss my Jas kun……….he’s probably at home……..doing homework….or preparing to go to his dinner…………..with his family………..do you think he would be thinking of me? I hope he is……..*dreams…….and swoons*
Kawaiie ne my Jas kun…………..
His friend on the other hand…………..
But anyway….did I tell you that Jas kun came from Britain……I never knew……..but he so polite ne……and he promised to be in charge of my website…….which will be coming soon……..Jas kun liked to do computer programming and website designing….and he used to do abstract designs……that’s a couple of his hobbies…………..and he used to do gymnastics too……….he was about to be accepted into the Manchester team…..but had to come back here……..and there’s no centre nearby so he’s forced to stop…….he broke his arm too………..*my poor Jas kun*……………..and he does tae kwan do....and helps out with chess and currently he is also doing computer course work on tuesdays...*so hardworking*
And he is writing a fantasy novel right now……….*so clever my Jas kun*……….*dreams*……..and so perfect…….and his favourite color is blue……..*and he looks nice in every other color too!!*……
And he thinks I look hot in black…………….*I’m going insane for my Jas kun*………….. he’s so sweet…………and so nice……..and is the best………….*swoons some more*
*sighs*………….*missing Jas kun*
Deery nichan Derek finally replied ne………..heeee………….he’s doing well in Melbourne…….and would be looking for a part time job so he can’t come back for Christmas……..but he would in January…….so yay!!
And beary nichan Alex has also finally smsed…………che………always so late wan those two…………..but he is preparing for his exams……ganbatte ne nichan!!
And Spike died!!! Oh………the vampire from Buffy the Vampire Slayer……….poor Spike……..all he ever done was love Buffy…..and in the end he was the one who saved everyone……….and it was only then Buffy said she loved him……but he knew the truth….and said she didn’t……….and he died saving them……………I feel so sad now…………….and I have a headache……and a tummy ache………*ouch*……..*is in pain*
*slumps off in pain*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 8:45 PM
Monday, October 11, 2004
Mid term break is here.....and going to pass in two days time!! Never have i so enjoyed a holiday......I want my holiday!!!!
So we went out to the mall......mainly to pick out clothes for a friend who only knows jeans and very little else.....and to see a movie......
but they are so mean!!!!! They ran away from me.....*sniff sniff*, then they squabble because they didn't want to sit next to me!!!! Homophobic people..........*che*....and one of them is a bi too!!!! *is feeling extremely abandoned*
But on better note......I get to chat again with Jas kun........*eeeeee*...he so nice and kawaiie............and he promised to do my website for me.........see, he's so nice.......downpoint is that he always have to go after an hour......it's barely enough time!!! We get to chat so little......and he doesn't have a phone.....and he's not free from stuff....and he can't go out.........*sniff*
His parents why like that.......dont let him out........the poor thing.....my poor Jas kun..............sniff..........I miss him already.......and he can't come online for the next two days cause he has a family dinner and some other stuff...........what am I to do until thursday??......and he said he likes me in whatever I wear........I think he reads this off a book ne....so many compliments.........*blushes*
kawaiie sou....................................
and today at the mall (which he couldn't go) we went shopping for that friend and we picked out so many nice stuff and she denied all of them!!! Cute miniskirts....and tops......and shoes............*sigh*......she is terrible to shop with ne................and the thing is that she actually looks nice.........*che*.................
*runs to Jas kun*............*he still much cuter*................
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 11:13 PM
Thursday, October 07, 2004
He said yes, he said yes, he said yes...........he said YES.....he's going to prom.....and he's going with me........and we're sitting at the same table.....and he is going with me.........*is estatic*
Oh, how happy life is...........and I talked to him!!! And i caught him peeping a few times........hahahahaha.............and he didn't exactly tell me that he was going but one of the prefects came around asking who was going and asked my name, and then she said, 'oh so you are....' and then she turned to him and said my name.............eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............
and I talked to him......and I waved to him....and he waved back!! He's surprisingly compliant.....like I waved him over and he got up and came over.....but then he went to sit back down when I waved again......it was suppose to be a sign for him to sit down near me, but he thought I meant I had nothing to say...........*sigh* he's so kawaiie........
and he doesn't have a handphone....that presents some problems....how am I to SMS him? And he looks very lost ne......and when I sat next to him, he kept looking elsewhere...............*wail* maybe he doesn't want to go with me...........*sniff sniff*............oh, so mean............
And I found out that one of my crushes last time actually hit on some year 11 (now year 12) girls.......sisters somemore............*sigh*.........I have self esteem issues now..........what is wrong with me?.......I'm perfectly cute.........and nice............and kawaiie..........hehehhehee...........^.^
And he is nice (JL)....oh, his name is Jason...........our nickname for him is olive/grape........anyway, my friend has a crush on his friend........who's nickname is Bumblebee............so I went to Jason and asked him to ask his friend to ask my friend to prom..........that was the time he kept looking elsewhere.....but he said ok.................*thinks*....maybe he actually likes Mel-chan........cause he had a look on his face when I pointed her out to him..........*thinks* what if he actually likes someone else??? What if he likes someone I know............*wail*..................I'm so desolated now............my date probably likes some one else...........*sniff*.........*drags off to do homework*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 6:12 PM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
I got a new phone!!!! A brand new state of the art camera phone from Samsung.............*is very happy*
I had to wait 24 hours before I could use it cause new phones have to be charged the full day........*sigh*......but isn't it great?? It was a gift from the estate agent of my parent's from Bali who made a deal, that if the contract goes through then I would get a new phone........hee............
I'm so happy..........been taking pictures and flashing it around......but no many people interested.......hmmmm...........
today, we get to eat cake for Nathan's birthday.....wow, Ahana brings the best american chocolate cake.....yum.......unfortunately my little allergy of getting fever when I eat chocolate prevented me from getting a second piece.........never mind......................it was still yummy
*ack* MUN is so boring now..........all we do is research..........they are so slow.........we only have three practicing days left and they are still doing research and opening speeches!! 90% of the new guys (all male but atleast some of the past years came back..yay Ji Unn......and girl...and girl whom I dont know) anyway, the new guys don't know how a resolution is, or the debate, or lobbying.........we are going to be a laughing stock.........sheesh........and the teachers are non committal to my help..............che
*swoon* and today I spoke to him!! Olive......my new crush.......actually his new nickname is grape.........you can see my little progress so far by reading the entries below........but to day i spoke with him!!! Finally managed to pass him on my way back.............and so I stopped and asked him if he was going....and he said he wasn't sure but promised to go with him.........*is in heaven*.........oh, he is so kawaiie..............with three little hairs on his chin.......and he wore a red shirt............so kawaiie........I wuvvy my olive.............*swoon*
*wanders in dream land*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 7:41 PM
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Arashi got their new album out!! It’s called Now, and features all the songs that I like…………….yay….Pikanchi Double, the theme song from Stand Up! And the song that they sing in the bathtub…………hehehee…………kawaiie sou……..
I think it’s their best album yet…….and they have a mix of the more mature ballads and the youthful j-pop that they are famous for………….well, as the Johnny’s Group of boy bands are famous for but still…….Arashi sugoi!!
So I saw the little video made of the Arashi Now Tour concert from AIUEO………..the Taiwanese people get everything…………….*sigh dreamily*………and it was great ne………it looked great…….and Nino was the first voice singing the song Jam (as in to jam and not the thing you spread on your bread) as well as Galaxy……….he sang for almost 1 minute for the starting of Galaxy…… I think maybe that’s a theme song for another of his dorama……after all he has the new one with the shrinking girl……….*eeeeeeeeeeeee* Nino looks great in a futuristic type of shirt and trousers with silvers and greys, slick and sleeveless…………….and underneath he wore a sleeveless green and silver shirt……………..*swoon*…….and he can actually sing……of course I never doubted his………well, ok, maybe just a little….but you never see him singing…………kawaiie………he acts more too………but he does play the guitar…………………..he has this very boyish voice, much lighter than the rest of the group so you can hear him distinctly in the chorus parts………….Sho Sakurai is the one with a tougher, hoarse voice doing all the rap, so does Ohno Sato……….*waahhhh* and Nino is by far the best dancer……..sugoi, sugoi, sugoi!! The choreography for Pikanchi Double is excellent, although more succinct in the video than the concert. Others are nice too……….
And then they were throwing pieces of card with writing on them to the audience, and they waved goodbye while singing…………….and they did some old songs too like A-Ra-Shi…………and Sunshine……….
But most of the audience members were so old!!! Mostly women……..waving flowers and their hands………….and old……………….thirty-ish………twenty……….some youngsters…………….. I know most of Arashi has reached their twenties but still……………..thirty-ish??................and they are surprisingly non-fan like……..you know, most fans would be grabbing at things and wanting to shakes hands………….the audience just stayed in their areas and waved…….and even when the guys took off their silver jackets and dropped them on the floor, some over the floor into the audience areas, no one picked them up……………wah, well trained people…………… I would love to get Nino’s jacket…………..and Nino………..*chuckle*
*hums pikanchi double*……………
oh yeah.......the baka Oxford people couldn't receive our application cheque......which we did send with everything else........funny how the most sought after institution can mess up before they even read our applications.......we should have gone somewhere else...................*hugs olive plushie*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 11:30 PM
