Tuesday, November 07, 2006
I'm fine. Spate of emo trials are on their last end. Really.....no, no cuts, no dying, no.....sobbing tears. Really.
Don't keep taking his jacket away ><....my only momento you know....it's ....comforting.....murfs.
Sigh....what am I going to do. At this stage it's sorta sian, not feeling like miserably sad but that twinge of loneliness when I step into college. I don't want to be there. I don't want to be left alone. It's like.....caught in between. Can't keep staying at nichan's right.....two people, one tiny dirty ewwww apartment is making high level tensions. But it's comfortable here, notwithstanding level of hygiene. There's always someone here....makes it lighter, makes me laugh, keeps me company. And it's relaxed so I don't feel like I have to pretend to be alright when I am not....but then, I feel better already knowing that I don't have to pretend....I sit all day in bed in pyjamas, eating food, studying and WoWing.....ahhhh......I don't want to go back ><.
I don't want to see him when I really want to see him............
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 5:44 AM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
I've degenerated...
Song Title: God Knows
Singer: Aya Hirano
I’m running blind; I know my heart can’t take anymore
Hard to forgive, I couldn’t help but fall again
You’ve shut me out, unreachable and now you’re alone
You take it all, and you won’t let me share your pain
I’ll turn back; and even though I know that it’s over
Will I really leave, do you really want me on that lonely rail
I’ll follow
Deep into the evening
Even though you’ll leave me
Through the cold I’ll push the hours away until I find you
You’re looking forward and wait for the day
You’re shining
Guiding me forever
Past my indiscretion
We’re far apart but you’ll lead me back again and my ways
Will someday cross with yours again
Together as God blessed
Passionate thoughts, they fall into your crystalline gaze
Melting away into our harsh reality
No reason why, but I still try to find you again
You’re rushing down; I’m swept away by loving you
Even so, I believe I’ll capture this moment
Beauty fades away; but I’m always aching for your lonely heart
I’m ready
Face to face I’ll tell you
No more time for lying
We can’t spare a moment to look; Our love couldn’t survive there
No reaching back for all our regrets
I’m stronger
Always moving forward
Destiny is changing
I want to know what the morning brings because it’s my wish
Completing every plan we shared
Together as God knows
I know that we exist
Everyone may disappear into a dream,
And yet your vision still remains
I try to chase the past
I outline all our hopes before they fade away
But I just trace the scars
I’ll answer, I’ll follow
Deep into the evening
Even though you’ll leave me
Through the cold I’ll push the hours away until I find you
You’re looking forward and wait for the day
You’re shining
Guiding me forever
Past my indiscretion
We’re far apart but you’ll lead me back again and my ways
Will someday cross with yours again
Together as God blessed
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 1:46 AM
