Friday, April 29, 2005
Scanned in my latest batch of drawings...hehe....here's some previews. Soon they will be housed in my own site *yay*
Kitaro Lail from Runes, my anime available at our fictionpress.net account ^.^
Honari chan from Kokoro no Uruhu, my new anime which will be out soon....
Yukito, one of the main characters from Kokoro no Uruhu....
^.^
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:44 PM
Schorrii kun sent some pics of his home........sugoi ne, he takes fantastic photos, and they look great....here are some.........
This is one view of SudTirol where Schorrii kun likes to climb.
This is stunning......there's another one filled with fog.....but anyways.
I think Schorrii kun's feeding a bird.....cute ne??
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:29 PM
Thursday, April 28, 2005
I'm up to 22K!! Yay..........without playing a game........how funny.....
Schorri kun kawaiie sou, he's fun to talk to and he's a pisces like me....woohoo...no wonder we get along..........
He also likes to climb, eh, I should include a pic of south tyrol, it looks fantastic with such great expanse of rock and trees and the sky is BLUE...Love that picture......
Ah, he's so nice to talk to...........we are going to be 1 dan together *onward* hopefully.......
Lots of other info..........himitsu des...........*winks*
*runs away*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 12:24 AM
News came out that a woman has sued her doctors over a failed abortion of twins, one died but one survived to be given birth and she is now raising her daughter with her parents. She claims the reasons for the lawsuit was that the doctors failed the abortion and now she has to raise a child she didn't plan on having........
Point number one~ THAT woman was irresponsible in the first place and she is now suing?? Come on, everytime you are with a partner engaging in sexual activities, surely that comes with the possibility of child birth? Basic biology taught to every school child. Even the use of contraceptions only have 99.9 % of effectiveness, that leaves a 0.1 percent of non effectiveness.......
So she wanted to have sex yet once she had a child, twins actually, she wanted to get rid of them because she didn't 'plan' to have a child at that time. Great.......
Botched operation, one twin lives and is born and is now a child......the mother sues the doctors.........wow.......I can't think of a better way to convey the message to the child 'I didn't want you and I still don't want you, and now I'm going to get money just to support your dependence on me as your mother'.
Wow............I can't really believe the law courts allow this suit to go through...........someone should have laughed, then scolded the woman and sent her home.............it's stuff like this I wonder what the heck do lawyers do........*mutters* make alot of money off stupid lawsuits.........
Rather than thanking the doctors for giving her another chance and having this beautiful child, she sues them for not killing the child properly.........wow.........................
*mutters about the lack of adults in this world knowing how to bring love into the world*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 12:22 AM
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Yay........I've reached 23 kyu in my go career of four months *happy* *throws sakura blossoms into the air*
I've been playing almost every night and there's been some ups and downs (last two weeks were filled with losses) but no worries! Play play play and sooner or later I will (I WILL) reach 1 dan..............*yay*
Alot of the players have been great, friendly and willing to review so I find out where I went wrong and stuff like that............the Sabaki club for example (go players on KGS should check it out), founded by Kakashisan who is part evil and part sensei..........*lol*
Everyone else in Sabaki rocks...........Lax sama has been playing me and winning like heck but he has a great go tutoring style ---> *NOOOOOOOO, SOOOO UNBEAUTIFUL!! SOOOO LOCAL!!! LOOK FOR DOOR!!!*
Met another fellow 23Kyu player too, Schorrii kun who is great fun to play with..............and there's Fujisai chan and Micha chan and well........everyone else............
I wanna play...............*wail* exams coming up *wail somemore*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 9:57 PM
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
What is the deal about the uproar on homosexuality?
It’s insane that every so and so day I hear somewhere from someone some negative view/attitude/opinion about gay people or about ‘gayness’ in general. Like yesterday I received a newspaper article detailing content that was summed up as ‘homosexuality contradicts human nature’. First I laughed at the ludicrous audacity the writer had in proclaiming herself to be knowledgeable about the morality of homosexuality on the basis of her job; as a research officer in the studies of Islam and thereby crusading against what she termed as a ‘wrongdoing’, and then I became angry at her presuming to lecture others when clearly she has no sound understanding on the issue of homosexuality which shouldn’t even be an issue in the first place.
Her article is not all faults. She began by introducing letters she had received; the cause of her article. The first was about the idea of homosexuality as a means to curtail the expansive growth of the human population e.g. as gay or lesbian partners one cannot give natural birth per se (although more are exploring artificial insemination and adoption; good idea for the latter since the world has so many orphans in need of good homes and families). She was quite right in suggesting in response that the real problem was not the rapid rise of population but the ‘unbalanced distribution of wealth between rich and poor countries’. Nothing was given however for the context in which the ‘problem’ was about, so I presume that they were talking about the world problem in general. The second was a personal letter about a gay man who is ‘forced’ into finding a ‘wife’ in order to appease his parents who did not know he was gay and he had actually written to the researcher to find him such a ‘wife’. I laughed…………………………….there were so many things wrong with his request and her response that honestly…………it’s………….ludicrous……………………
He wanted to find a ‘wife’ to keep his homosexuality a secret and was willing to ‘pay an attractive amount of money’; his words…………to me, that’s called prostitution…………furthermore he would be wronging the woman by binding her to what seems to be a non existent but in name marriage which would be to his so called benefit by hoodwinking his parents……………….wow, he is prepared to lie, cheat and is a coward…………
The above reasons were secondary though in the writer’s mind whose first and foremost objection was that ‘homosexuality was against Islam’. Hmm, I shall refute this in a second, let’s go back to the man. He wrote back furious and said ‘what had happened to him was fated’.
Let’s get it clear….homosexuality is not an event. One does not wake up and discover ‘omg, I’m gay!!’ Far from it, people accept or reject in some cases that they are homosexual after experiencing a time (perhaps a very long time) of self discovery, doubts, clarity and attaining knowledge. Even as a student sociologist, I lean towards the idea that homosexuality is innate, but I also believe it’s a choice. More people are born bisexual i.e. they should be inclined to accept a relationship with both males and females. I’m one myself (why should I barricade myself from the other half of the population), but throughout the course of their life, mostly childhood through teenage years, and being socialised through various social institutions i.e. the family, school, the media, religion etc etc, they would come to reject bisexuality and become heterosexual, or they become homosexual or they stay bisexual. Most are likely to take the first road, in face of pressure from society. Thus I don’t believe that the man was justified in any way by arguing that ‘homosexuality’ was fated and that this ‘was the not the life he planned to live’. If he didn’t plan to live that way, then make a choice and live it some other way. Don’t accept that other people are going to make your choices for you. He also said that ‘nobody had the right to judge him’. True enough, why should we judge people, if at all? Homosexuality is a sexual choice, it is not the overriding master status that rids a person of all they are. Why does society see a gay man or lesbian woman and not think of them as brother, sister, daughter, son, mother, father, co worker, doctor, friend, a fun person, charismatic, warm, reticent, a dreamer, a challenger, alive. They are not JUST ‘gay’, they are people, and they are gay, and so what?
Back to the writer of the article, she referred to homosexuality as a ‘wrongdoing’ and that it ‘is contradictory to human nature’. She states that it ‘jeopardises the marriage institution and creates gender bewilderment, it threatens the five objectives of shriah- to protect religion, life, intellect, progeny and wealth’ and that the ‘Quran ‘prove’ that this type of lifestyle is detested and must by avoided by all Muslims’.
The rest of the article was so self contradictory, I shall leave it out, but basically it stated the aims of Islam that though worthwhile, seems to be in direct contrast to the condemnation of homosexuality.
Firstly, homosexuality cannot contradict human nature when it is biological. If she did not believe that it was not biological, then homosexuality is socialised into individuals, and thus it also cannot be against human nature since society regulates itself via socialised norms and values. There are studies proving that there isn’t a singular human nature. What we think and do and believe comes from society, our behaviour has been instilled in us from our community, via the teachings of our parents, schools, friends, the media, religion and any other social institution. Thus we learned to be us, we learned how to behave, and we learned ‘human nature’. This means the rules and regulations the article referred to was in fact a product of social construction, it was made by people and in turn made us who we are. Thus firstly God in every form and in every number did not state that homosexuality is ‘wrong’, that was proclaimed by people, and secondly, it is society which views homosexuality as wrong, it is not wrong in nature. Thus it is a relative concept. Once society accepts homosexuality, it will no longer be considered ‘wrong’, and it shouldn’t even be viewed in such negativity now.
I believe that it was 60% of all marriages (atleast in the US based on my info) ends in divorce. Given that the US does not recognise gay marriages (it’s only allowed in one state and even that is being disputed), thus 60% of heterosexual marriages end in divorce. May I ask why homosexuality is taken as a scapegoat for ‘jeopardising’ the marriage institution when it has no problem declining on its own?
Gender bewilderment……………why again? Those born with the medical condition as it is considered, with cross gender identity in different sex bodies, or even those born with the two forms of genitals have a higher percentage of likelihood to cause gender bewilderment that homosexuality. Gender is another learned concept. We learn to behave, and thus we learn to behave like girls or boys in the type of behaviour considered acceptable in various societies. A choice of sexuality does not prevent a gay man from being ‘masculine’ or a lesbian woman from being ‘feminine’.
As to the other threats of homosexuality towards religion, life, intellect, progeny and wealth………………how again? How does homosexuality threaten religion? It is not a lifestyle which condemns religiosity, I know for a fact that there is even a Christian Gay rights group. It is also in my opinion a threat towards life and intellect to condemn homosexuality because by doing so, you are condemning people coming together, and you are refusing to understand what is a simple matter of choice, thus it is a crime towards knowledge to refuse to understand homosexuality. Progeny; many homosexual couples can adopt……….that is an even better idea, because you are allowing someone into your life, you are giving a family and livinghood towards someone who needs them and you sharing your love and theirs. As to wealth……..economists are accepting the concept of the Pink Pound; the economic wealth derived from the middle class homosexual population who at the current time has no family per se to spend their money on, and thus the economy thrive from their expenditure. Wealth is being generated…………………………..by who, by homosexual people.
Homosexuality should not be a crime. In today’s societies, with such modernity and array of individuality and choice, one must be open minded towards something as simple as a choice of sexuality. Condemning it does nothing except creating more anger and pain. Celebrate life, don’t condemn it. Don’t keep bringing God into the argument when it is an insecurity of the human. For those who believe in God, whether Christians, Muslims, Jews, Hindus, Buddhists and anyone else, if you believe God made us, then he or she made us as we are. It is not an act against God, against nature, against anything. Just live life…………………………………stop thinking about it…………………
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:15 PM
Friday, April 15, 2005
Another session and this time they added weights......owwww......ok, wasn't so bad this time around cos the weights actually help support the ankles when you start lifting the legs........and on the stepper and the other machine and then this balancing thing to help posture *makes face*..............sigh.........another afternoon gone in the hospital waiting............and trying to continue learning japanese which you can't eaily since you have to watch the timer and your legs are practically throbbing with pain.........the knee is in pain.......theraphy seems to be making it worse.........I'm worried..............................................and did that ultrasound thing again...............the gel is cold but otherwise fine........altho I don't see a reason for it so.................
and they took off the bandages and *yay*.......I got minimal scarring, just a dark line and some raised tissue, so not bad overall........
Nichan always going out wan....dota dota dota...........................I miss my onichans............*needs a hug*
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:29 PM
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Mahatma Ghandhi says 'Let yourself be the change you want in the world'.....
good mantra to observe, I've been following it since I was six..........then I grew up or atleast the world forced me to and I see that you can try all you want, the world can still reject you...............
I respect Ghandhi, heck I was proud to learn that he graduated from the law faculty in UCL, the same London uni that has cordially made me an offer...........but right now I don't agree with his passive non violence opposition to British rule. It won India's freedom, with alot of blood, and more split blood *points to India and Pakistan albeit the latest news of Kashmir is slightly encouraging*
To me........violence begets violence...........terrible cycle, should be stopped, but people who handed out the violence in the first place only KNOWS violence, they are hardly going to respond to pleadings and rationality...............because if they did they would see the crying woman they are raping, they would hear the beatings upon the bodies of men and women and child, they would think about the ruined lives of their victims.....................since they don't, for every of their beatings, they should get the same, for their taunts, they should get their mouths sewn, for every rape, let them suffer with a crude cut in place so that they suffer more......................................................
Passiveness has no place.............
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:10 PM
Monday, April 11, 2005
I feel obliged to blog that my driver's mother has passed away....a few days ago, his parents were involved in a crash, and the father died in the instant while the mother was in a coma until he received news of her passing this afternoon...........
You can't help but feel sorry or pity............but what good does that do for his family...............and conditions like these.........I'm emotionally stunted.........offers of condolences are useless in my opinion and anyhow I can't offer them without knowing the pain that has been caused..........
Still it shows how tremulous lives are.........one minute, normal live, the second, you are dead.......................oftentimes I think death as chosen........as a depressive potential suicide-ist, I think of death as a choice, and everytime I set aside the blade, I set aside the thoughts of blood and empty pain, I have made the choice to live and bear out what life will give and what I will take..............................yet the next instance, a car can crash into you, and that choice is ripped away........................
This year bears bad tidings........................winter may not becoming, but it doesn't hurt to warm up.............
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:09 PM
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Well.....after some intense physiotheraphy (my knees now feel like they went climbing some Mount Fuji), we waited an hour and a half in A & E to get the stitches out......
So.......now with white plaster on my head and a barely noticeable.....fine red line for a scar, I'm good to go as they say..........altho the thing twinges a bit..........no problem really, the knee is causing more pain..............so..........
Not bad for easter huh...........altho this week seem to be catastrophe week....................with John Paul II passing away, my crash on the head, and my driver's parents getting into an accident............there's bad stuff going around.......................so everyone take care..............
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:09 PM
Friday, April 01, 2005
Well.........another day gone by, and last night my knees (both of them) hurt......*whimpers*
heeee...........but I can walk without the brace now so that's cool.......
And I realize that me and dad have the same typing method of typing....we both use only one finger on each hand..........tho his is the first finger and mine are the middle...................everyone else used their whole hand of five fingers..........*lol*
And we watched Hitch today....not bad..........kindda funny and sweet.......
Whoops....have to go see doc now.....for the head......and knee physiotheraphy on monday.......sigh
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 7:23 PM
