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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

I don’t know why I am having so many problems with Jas kun ne………..sometimes I feel that he doesn’t care at all and that he is just being with me cause he has nothing else to do…..he doesn’t really show that he wants me…….and then I get very sad……..and he always say he is too busy or it’s inconvenient for him to do anything like going out in the holidays cause he doesn’t have transportation….. and that he doesn’t want to bother his parents……… I suppose I should understand ne, but I don’t…….sniff……..then I feel even worse for being so mean to him, and even more sad when I see him sad because I am mad at him…………….sniffle………..then he’ll come over and say he’s sorry and we would make up…………..but I don’t want ne……..all the heartache and tears……just want him to be happy with me……..and it hurts if I see him unhappy too………….but I want to be with him………and it’s hard cause we can’t meet beside in school which is hardly what you call private……..and everytime we pass a teacher we had to break away or to stop holding hands…….. I don’t want us to keep having to hide that we are in love……….well……… I’m in love anyway…….*peek shyly at Jas kun*…………. I’m wondering if he feels the same way………………….*hopes Jas kun feels the same way*……………..cause despite what he says, he is important to me and I love him…………..

Mused by Sukunami Taka around 10:57 PM

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