Friday, January 06, 2006
Happy New Year 2006!!
Fireworks are banging outside near the twin towers and I'm alone in my room on KGS and Gaia.....fun ^___^
Yes while many people are outside with friends and family, drinking, laughing, having fun, watching the black skies come alight.....don't you dare have the words pathetic in your head...
But....as I wished for good health for the family, and happiness for my friends, I realised how lucky I was. Even though I tend to worry too much, I'm lucky to be able to stress over university, to worry about friends living across the world, about my parents and grandmother, and of course cousins again halfway across the world. And truly it was a heartfelt moment because I realised there would always be someone to comfort me wherever I am. Oh....feel tears coming ><.
Just two days ago some girl on Gaia forums attacked me on some misconstrued incident. An unvalidated attack and eventhough it was petty and silly, tears started coming and in the next two seconds I was bawling infront of the computer because yeah, I'm sensitive. And emotional. Very very emotional. I don't like seeing people so insecure with themselves that they lash out against others without reason and need to feel good about themselves by having others agree with them. And when I'm the one being harped on, yeah I get hurt. But surprisingly the anger is slow to kick in. If I see friends get hurt, I'm quick to take a stand, but for myself, meh...easier to back away. Spent the night arguing with myself eventhough I'm right, but arguing nonetheless, to keep the anger away. It was made much easier because I had friends, simple caring people who embraced me and wanted to protect me. Zombiekun, Shun chan, Springkun, Tigerkun, Hanging san, Spectral san and Chemi san. Thankyou. They listened, they hugged, and they stood by me, from Zomb's gentleness, to Shun's tenacity at going through hundreds of posts, Spring's always being there, Tito totally being a tiger when he heard and making me laugh, Hanging's calmness, Spectral's honesty, Chemi's sweetness......truly blown away by their sincerity, their love and their care. There has never been a better new year....than knowing there's someone beside you even if it's their thoughts, it's a beautiful gesture.
On other notes....darn university hasn't responded...yet again!
Celi's moved out and is now with Kirisu ...and now she seems really happy so I'm glad.
Kuudee is back, did I say? Yup, and is playing better than ever....
Day san, well, is Daniel san ^^
I have to look for a new computer, and the iMac G5 looks real good. Not really sure about getting a Mac though because the internal system is all different and many of the programs I have will need to be reinstalled. Gotto ask Derekkun again.
Leopardkun has been playing with his band and seems really busy......=(
Did I mention I went to watch Narnia with Alex? Honestly my memory's been shot this holiday ><. Good movie, though Mr Lumnus acts really weird and would be prime suspect if seen around children.
XY makes me laugh, a sure way to keep me young.
Drimmy Drimgere finally got his picture---->
Finally saw an episode of the O.C. It was a teen drama that drove the entire A Levels people insane to the point they are exhanging currency with episodes of it. I can see the attraction, the guy is hot ......the girl is slightly too thin, but anyways, a bunch of teens going wild, throw in the bad boy, 'good girl' two sides of the track plotline, and voila, soapfest.
Woohoo, and Charmed finally got a new season. They got really washy wishy at the last season, now the sisters are living new lives, pretending to be dead.
Anyways.
And so....oh yes, Spring and Ninja got this joke going which was really weird cos I walked into the game and they started saying they loved each other, oh boy, but anyways Spring prefers me ...muahahahahahaa.......^_________^
Right right. No no, oh yes, lost two games yesterday but the first against Tito was interesting....hmmm. The second against Ninja I really wasn't paying attention. Silly me, with lots of mistakes and then lost on time. It was bad oh yeah...
And so. I love you all, and have a great new year of the dog....oh so cute!
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 1:23 AM
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