It's scary, all these people and all these question. Volunteering support. I wonder why, the more they offer, the more I get scared. Because then I wonder, I'm really not strong enough. All this while I've managed, I've got it under control, but by and by it starts becoming more overwhelming. And I get more scared because I can feel I am losing it. So I wonder if subconsciously, I'm thinking........the more support you give, the more afraid I am that I really cannot handle it anymore. What happens when you leave? What happens when the support disappears. You can't be here with me all the time.
I wonder if that's why, it's easier to go away. Withdraw. I'm always alone.
+The Writer+
Taka is a young law/arts student, often bumbling through life and trying to be a person rather than being defined by social conventions.
Shy, geeky, emotional, proud, and quite bisexual, doesn't smoke, drink sometimes, passionate about most things, Taka spends time dreaming, dancing, drawing and watching movies, often anime.
Is in love with the idea of love, gives hugs at the most random times, and is constantly worrying about people eventhough it does not look like it.
Aspires to either become a beautiful hermit by the river or a world dictator.
+The Blog+
Niflheim represents both light and darkness, of the celebration and distaste of life, of musings and incoherent thought. It is an outlet for personified angst and pessimism with chuckfuls of laughter and smiles.
It is Taka's way of drawing out all the little disturbing thoughts giving rise to nightmares, a way to self reflect, a way to seek solace.
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