*Dances into the room* Ok…..didn’t really start like that………………rather there were uncontrollable tears and then confusion, and more tears, and then………………….bliss……………. *woffles* Kind of mixed feelings really…………….I like him, and I want to be with him and make everything work…………………..just…………………I miss Jas too……*cowers at the anticipation of a few nechans and nichans throwing things at me* Oww………………………..ok, I don’t know why………………I should be happy and contented with having someone who now makes me happy and smile everyday, who cares for me, who loves me and treats me like I atleast matter………………. I AM happy……………………and I haven’t stopped smiling………..just…………….
So I don’t really know why I still miss Jas…………….maybe I need to find closure………………….hmmm…………..worth a thought………..now how do I find that closure…………………can’t exactly walk up to him in school…………can’t call him…………………….maybe I can write to him………and say what?
Maybe I can say I am happy now…………..that I don’t feel like crying every night and instead looks forward to talking to people again and enjoying some of the stuff I have always liked………………..that it doesn’t hurt so much anymore…………………..
So I miss him abit………………..but I think I’m missing a certain leopard even more…………………………..maybe that’s what matters……………it’s going to be hard but I’m going to try……………….loving someone again…………and it’s going to be a long distance thing but still….I’m looking forward to it………………
Looking forward to everything again……………………*smiles*
+The Writer+
Taka is a young law/arts student, often bumbling through life and trying to be a person rather than being defined by social conventions.
Shy, geeky, emotional, proud, and quite bisexual, doesn't smoke, drink sometimes, passionate about most things, Taka spends time dreaming, dancing, drawing and watching movies, often anime.
Is in love with the idea of love, gives hugs at the most random times, and is constantly worrying about people eventhough it does not look like it.
Aspires to either become a beautiful hermit by the river or a world dictator.
+The Blog+
Niflheim represents both light and darkness, of the celebration and distaste of life, of musings and incoherent thought. It is an outlet for personified angst and pessimism with chuckfuls of laughter and smiles.
It is Taka's way of drawing out all the little disturbing thoughts giving rise to nightmares, a way to self reflect, a way to seek solace.
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