………………..I guess it is kind of my fault this time for seeing grey again…………………………….should have learnt my lesson huh…………stop trusting, stop dreaming, stop hoping……………….
I don’t understand why………………………….to me the best thing about being alive is that we are able to love, and able to show people happiness…………the thing is that not many people think like this anymore do they. Now it is all about hurting……………about pain……………..the philosophy is ‘as long as I get what I want, nothing else matters’………. Now I’m going off track again………. *sigh*
It feels like Jas all over again…………………don’t know why seeing him everytime, it hurts……….it just reminds me how stupid I was……….how it was such a cliché, such a lie………………. Now………………………………………………….
I didn’t think it would hurt wanting to be with someone I haven’t even seen………………………..and now even crying again, it hurts more…………………………………………………………
Someone should remind me that I have exams……………..literature 20th Century text today wasn’t that bad, but wasn’t great…………. I liked the Walcott question, but Decline and Fall was something we were totally unprepared for………I don’t know……………probably just going to take it easy………….I’ll study and try my best………….Sociology and History on Tuesday……………..got a headache, and very tired………………
Grey
Heaviness settles, mocking as I rock Back and forth… Feeling like it would wash Everything away Dripping…slate outside
There’s only cold, Hard grey granite Unyielding against stony skin Tasting the salt As it washes away…
Soon crumbling, I clutch, trying Scraped against brittle coal Leaving streaked red Only me…unmoved upon grey…
+The Writer+
Taka is a young law/arts student, often bumbling through life and trying to be a person rather than being defined by social conventions.
Shy, geeky, emotional, proud, and quite bisexual, doesn't smoke, drink sometimes, passionate about most things, Taka spends time dreaming, dancing, drawing and watching movies, often anime.
Is in love with the idea of love, gives hugs at the most random times, and is constantly worrying about people eventhough it does not look like it.
Aspires to either become a beautiful hermit by the river or a world dictator.
+The Blog+
Niflheim represents both light and darkness, of the celebration and distaste of life, of musings and incoherent thought. It is an outlet for personified angst and pessimism with chuckfuls of laughter and smiles.
It is Taka's way of drawing out all the little disturbing thoughts giving rise to nightmares, a way to self reflect, a way to seek solace.
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