"Don't make me worried, study hard, remember to eat..." I nodded along to my grandmother's words, the same ones I heard before I left to university for the very first year. It is now my second. Year that is. "Don't go drinking with that boy and throw up ah..." I nodded along to.....what? "WHERE GOT?! WHAT BOY? I DIDN'T!" was my outrageous outburst. How on my earth did my grandmother of all people found out about the one night when I had a few too many drinks with my then boyfriend and subsequently threw up. I threw my hands up in despair, rolled my eyes the american way, patted her on the knee and said, "Don't worry, I'll study hard" and went back to drawing. Still it pounded in my chest, my head reeling with the thoughts.... how how how? I didn't tell my parents (OBVIOUSLY) much less my grandmother......who else...how else.....why when what... SPY! Could it be? I have a spy in melbourne? Here? Who? A friend, a family friend, some random uni student being paid off to watch over this random law/arts student? The term letting go of apron strings does not exist. How she could have found out I have no idea. Perhaps it is coincidental. Something she presumes everyone does. Since there has be countless times when she had said 'don't go drinking' etc etc etc......perhaps, perhaps not. But it is an awfully accurate coincidence. I have become paranoid.
Incidentally I'm now pregnant.
Next post will be about O week, returning to college and subsequent stuff.
+The Writer+
Taka is a young law/arts student, often bumbling through life and trying to be a person rather than being defined by social conventions.
Shy, geeky, emotional, proud, and quite bisexual, doesn't smoke, drink sometimes, passionate about most things, Taka spends time dreaming, dancing, drawing and watching movies, often anime.
Is in love with the idea of love, gives hugs at the most random times, and is constantly worrying about people eventhough it does not look like it.
Aspires to either become a beautiful hermit by the river or a world dictator.
+The Blog+
Niflheim represents both light and darkness, of the celebration and distaste of life, of musings and incoherent thought. It is an outlet for personified angst and pessimism with chuckfuls of laughter and smiles.
It is Taka's way of drawing out all the little disturbing thoughts giving rise to nightmares, a way to self reflect, a way to seek solace.
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