Saturday, December 18, 2004
I've dreamt of my Jas......uh.......of Jason quite a few times........*sigh*....miss him very much.........he is still nice to me atleast, helping me out with some personal problems..........actually just letting me cry to him........*miao*
When we were together the dreams were always happy.......kindda intimate ones.....no details miinasan................
Then we broke up..............the dreams continued actually......just older......you know those dreams where you age like 10 years later..........*sigh*........and we were happy.......going to university.........then......
There was one dream I remember.....kind of weird......but it was suppose to end happily with us making up but then it was surreal......we were trying to find someplace quiet so we started walking and I know we were walking up to the stairs that go to the first floor, the one which is kindda dark and ends there.....but it was totally different because we could look out and see trees......and the window place thingy was bigger.....and brighter.........but on the way up, I kept trying to breathe......and it was getting harder and harder......and we stopped a few times........when we finally reached the stairs and he said he loved me.......we hugged......and asthma attack occurred................I think I died after, cause everything went dark.............just remembered that I felt alot of sadness.......
Second dream I remembered was weirder............don't remember the details though...........felt hazy....and christmassy........with alot of scents....and some kind of liquor...............and there was him........and I keep thinking that there was someone else.....but I don't know who........
It's so weird............and today I woke up to another dream......and this one was nice........definitely.......he came over and told me to close my eyes and then put something on my finger...........ring ne........silver.......unassuming........and he just stood there........then he said look inside......and on the inside of the ring it's engraved 'I love you'........
I think I'm going insane..............keep thinking that he's the one......HE'S THE ONE..................................
And I'm going to be unhappy the rest of my life.........being alone...............dreaming of him.......................
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 12:16 AM
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