I'm in a state of non angerness. I thought I would be...well, the other way. Not exactly empty, but just anti anger.......calm......sort of. I'm slightly sad to be lied to, devastated to be played like a smiling doll on a string, and certainly for the first day or so, I thought I was angry........
Guess it proves I trust too easily. Not really sure if I have a friend now, and not really sure what to do. I don't feel like yelling, and asking why did he do this.....it's a waste of time and frankly will just cause way too many problems that I won't be in the mood to be handling. Neither do I feel like bursting into tears. No......have moved past that.
Rather I'm feeling.......I miss him. Just that........a friend, someone to talk to, someone I could trust. Of course the thing that he kind of betrayed that trust..............ok, problem right there. I need to be able to trust him again, but I don't, not right now. And that hurts....................
The one person who I want to talk to about the stuff happening and everything collapsing, and I can't....not really. Not without me feeling that what he says right back is a script or is not real. Rather he is doing something else and just says pre written lines back......................
Hmmm........so....it's anti climatic. Not really me at all is it. Usually I would feel something...............well....right now I just miss him.
+The Writer+
Taka is a young law/arts student, often bumbling through life and trying to be a person rather than being defined by social conventions.
Shy, geeky, emotional, proud, and quite bisexual, doesn't smoke, drink sometimes, passionate about most things, Taka spends time dreaming, dancing, drawing and watching movies, often anime.
Is in love with the idea of love, gives hugs at the most random times, and is constantly worrying about people eventhough it does not look like it.
Aspires to either become a beautiful hermit by the river or a world dictator.
+The Blog+
Niflheim represents both light and darkness, of the celebration and distaste of life, of musings and incoherent thought. It is an outlet for personified angst and pessimism with chuckfuls of laughter and smiles.
It is Taka's way of drawing out all the little disturbing thoughts giving rise to nightmares, a way to self reflect, a way to seek solace.
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