I’m depressed…………….many teenagers say this and don’t know the meaning of the word, but I am living it. Just all feelings sucked out of you, and you think you are just a living carcass going through life…………..then the emotions start, not ordinary emotions, but the blackened soulless existence of pessimism that makes you want to wither away…………………..a sense of fear……..guilt………..hopelessness………no one cares for me………………….they don’t………………. I don’t think even I do anymore……………….why don’t anyone care? Wanting to curl up and lie there very, very still…………until someone sees, until someone searches, until someone come find me, want to find me, want to know what is wrong…………want to see me……………..no more smile………………….or little fake smile showing……………. I can’t breathe………………
My head hurts, I can't cry.............
I can't breathe..........
+The Writer+
Taka is a young law/arts student, often bumbling through life and trying to be a person rather than being defined by social conventions.
Shy, geeky, emotional, proud, and quite bisexual, doesn't smoke, drink sometimes, passionate about most things, Taka spends time dreaming, dancing, drawing and watching movies, often anime.
Is in love with the idea of love, gives hugs at the most random times, and is constantly worrying about people eventhough it does not look like it.
Aspires to either become a beautiful hermit by the river or a world dictator.
+The Blog+
Niflheim represents both light and darkness, of the celebration and distaste of life, of musings and incoherent thought. It is an outlet for personified angst and pessimism with chuckfuls of laughter and smiles.
It is Taka's way of drawing out all the little disturbing thoughts giving rise to nightmares, a way to self reflect, a way to seek solace.
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