Thursday, September 09, 2004
Well, it has been nearly a week since school started and it hasn’t been so bad. Though the sixth form has been overwhelmed with the new Year 12s, things has settled down smoothly, and the homework is piling up…..what a surprise…..*chuckle*
I am both ecstatic and distant to everything. On one hand, I found out that I was not chosen for national service *hallelujah* but then I am also worrying about whether to drop a subject and also about my university application.
Almost everyone I have been talking too keeps telling me to keep all four subjects, seeing that I got straight As. But why give me more work when I only need three A levels for uni? I may be good at them but I am also lazy………yes, it’s true, I do prefer going on the internet searching for anime stuff etc etc rather than doing my homework, which is most often boring. Many of the other students are keeping all four subjects anyway, eventhough results weren’t so good…………*sigh* the people at school are so hardworking. Isn’t it warped when A type students want to drop subjects but others want to keep them? I will never understand………..and also the Year 12s are working hard, and getting to class early…….. I think our sixth form head had been lecturing them to be better than us…….last year we were lectured to be better than the past year 13s…….the cycle continues……….
So things are at a standstill…………….work, work, work…………
Oh, I think I have another crush…………*swirls*……one of the Year 12s. I noticed him………yes, it’s a him………last year, I think he was a prefect….but now he’s moved up………..you know, guys in proper shirts with long sleeves and long trousers look good……………and he’s tall, a little geeky looking, seems studious, very nice in blue…………………..*chuckle*, oh and he wears glasses……..*swoons*
*sigh*……… I am in an emotional roller coaster ride. Someone whom I was close with last year had another ‘talk’ with me……….. I kindda uh……..broke up with the person, and it didn’t really stick in with the person…………………. Making me feel really guilty……….what am I to do when the feeling is gone? If I kept at it, it would be a lie wouldn’t it? Better to part and still be friends. Although if the current situation continues with the emotional blackmail, I think I would burst……*double sigh* I think I would have been better off being single………and float around……….keep my crushes to myself?...................loneliness is a rather safe thing……lonely, but not emotional……..unless the tears start………………..
I found out that dad is actually quite spontaneous. One time, like a few weeks ago, he actually just got up (he was in Paris because he works there) and took a plane to the south of France for a holiday. Just like that. His holiday was just a respite during the weekends, and he went back to work on Monday but still……very spontaneous………..
Mused by Sukunami Taka around 8:49 PM
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